Growing up I always kept a journal filled with my thoughts, prayers, fears, excitement, pain, struggles, and lots of silly crushes, fights with family and friends, and poems. I was never shy about sharing it with my close friends and letting them know me. I wish I hadn’t stopped. I went back and read them once and was so embarrassed about some of the things I had written and so very proud of others. This is my attempt at beginning a new journal and the journey to a new me. I have attached a few of my past public blog postings to help me get started. I hope to be more personal and raw about my thoughts and feelings. Here goes…
Spring of 2007
Turns out I am just your average girl next door. I love it that way! I love my son (my world), my family, my wonderful husband Wesley, and my awesome friends and would do anything for you guys! I am sooooooo blessed and thank God every chance I get for all he has given me! I still want to learn till the day I die and never ever stop wanting to have new experiences and see new places. I love being outside, watching the stars and listening to Texas Country music or better yet a good friend singing and playing the guitar.
Fall of 2007
Whew what a year! We did it! We were married on April 21, 2007 in Granbury, TX. It was a short and sweet ceremony with our closest friends and family there. It was crazy, happy, and wonderful having the support of the people we love around us. Now we are about 10-11 weeks pregnant and due around the beginning of June. Wes graduated from Welding School up in Tulsa and has a great job at a local welding shop. Hunter just finished a great season in football and is going great in school. We are really proud of him. He is of course the center of our world and is a great kid. I couldn't have asked for more. We are moving to a newer home in a week and are happy to finally have a little more space (and two bathrooms)!
Well, it is fall and it is time for change! Our family is growing...we are pregnant! We are moving to a new home here in Burleson. Wes is doing great at his job welding and enjoys the company he works for. Hunter has just finished up a great football season and is doing well in school. Heather is pregnant and wants her energy levels back asap! We are blessed. We are healthy, have love in our lives, great friends, close family, and are glad to get up and do it all over again tomorrow. Since we have changed our e-mail address we have to change our myspace accounts too. Please update your friends list with our new profile.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Life, Love, and Growing Up
Wow, I have been a slacker when it comes to updates! We are about 29-30 weeks pregnant and are having a baby girl! We are all so thrilled. We don’t have a name yet but have a few ideas...Addison, Trinity, Teagan, and Lily to name a few. There are so many new feelings that are overwhelming me lately! My body feels so much older with this baby. Hunter is 11...that is a HUGE gap! As of last month’s doctor’s appointment I hadn’t yet gained any weight, but I think I may have gained 5-10 pounds in the past month. We will see tomorrow at my next visit. I am anxious about my maternity leave and not helping bring in any income during that time but I am even more anxious about the thought of going back to work and not being able to take care of my family and home! I have decided that for now I really want to stay at home and take care of the baby and Hunter myself. I am very worried about putting the entire burden of being the sole provider on Wes as he already works so hard. Thank God he loves the work he does as a welder. It makes it easier to work so hard when you enjoy what you do. I have been thinking of working from home and have a few ideas; home day care, maybe a mother’s day out program from home, personal organizer/planner (pay your bills, get you back on track, organize your closets, anything to make your life easier). I just don’t know what will work best for our family. Any ideas? Have I not thought of something great that is right in front of us? Thankfully, Wes lets me be myself and he supports me being whatever I want to be...I just don’t know what to do with that freedom. Being a single Mom for seven years you become the person you have to be to make it, to make ends meet, to give your child the best life possible, all of the opportunities to dream for themselves, to feel safe and loved and you forget about asking yourself, "What do I want to be when I grow up?" Then we found Wes and he loves us both so much and so unconditionally. He is always there for Hunter. He loves helping with his homework and sports and even playing X-box with him. He doesn’t mind that I want to just be a wife and mother. He doesn’t mind that I dream of volunteering, that I want to help kids; I want to help battered women and I that give my change to beggars on the street. With getting married, sharing a home and a life, and now being pregnant, there has just been so much change in the past year or so. We have a lot of choices to make and a lot to pray about. Should we stay in this area or move where Wes can make more money? Hunter is at an age where he needs stability in school and sports so we obviously don’t want to move year after year. We have great friends and family and many blessings here too so it is just generally difficult to think of moving away. We know God has a plan for our family, we know we need to seek HIM with all of our hearts to find it, it is just hard to let go as we should
Spring of 2007
Turns out I am just your average girl next door. I love it that way! I love my son (my world), my family, my wonderful husband Wesley, and my awesome friends and would do anything for you guys! I am sooooooo blessed and thank God every chance I get for all he has given me! I still want to learn till the day I die and never ever stop wanting to have new experiences and see new places. I love being outside, watching the stars and listening to Texas Country music or better yet a good friend singing and playing the guitar.
Fall of 2007
Whew what a year! We did it! We were married on April 21, 2007 in Granbury, TX. It was a short and sweet ceremony with our closest friends and family there. It was crazy, happy, and wonderful having the support of the people we love around us. Now we are about 10-11 weeks pregnant and due around the beginning of June. Wes graduated from Welding School up in Tulsa and has a great job at a local welding shop. Hunter just finished a great season in football and is going great in school. We are really proud of him. He is of course the center of our world and is a great kid. I couldn't have asked for more. We are moving to a newer home in a week and are happy to finally have a little more space (and two bathrooms)!
Well, it is fall and it is time for change! Our family is growing...we are pregnant! We are moving to a new home here in Burleson. Wes is doing great at his job welding and enjoys the company he works for. Hunter has just finished up a great football season and is doing well in school. Heather is pregnant and wants her energy levels back asap! We are blessed. We are healthy, have love in our lives, great friends, close family, and are glad to get up and do it all over again tomorrow. Since we have changed our e-mail address we have to change our myspace accounts too. Please update your friends list with our new profile.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Life, Love, and Growing Up
Wow, I have been a slacker when it comes to updates! We are about 29-30 weeks pregnant and are having a baby girl! We are all so thrilled. We don’t have a name yet but have a few ideas...Addison, Trinity, Teagan, and Lily to name a few. There are so many new feelings that are overwhelming me lately! My body feels so much older with this baby. Hunter is 11...that is a HUGE gap! As of last month’s doctor’s appointment I hadn’t yet gained any weight, but I think I may have gained 5-10 pounds in the past month. We will see tomorrow at my next visit. I am anxious about my maternity leave and not helping bring in any income during that time but I am even more anxious about the thought of going back to work and not being able to take care of my family and home! I have decided that for now I really want to stay at home and take care of the baby and Hunter myself. I am very worried about putting the entire burden of being the sole provider on Wes as he already works so hard. Thank God he loves the work he does as a welder. It makes it easier to work so hard when you enjoy what you do. I have been thinking of working from home and have a few ideas; home day care, maybe a mother’s day out program from home, personal organizer/planner (pay your bills, get you back on track, organize your closets, anything to make your life easier). I just don’t know what will work best for our family. Any ideas? Have I not thought of something great that is right in front of us? Thankfully, Wes lets me be myself and he supports me being whatever I want to be...I just don’t know what to do with that freedom. Being a single Mom for seven years you become the person you have to be to make it, to make ends meet, to give your child the best life possible, all of the opportunities to dream for themselves, to feel safe and loved and you forget about asking yourself, "What do I want to be when I grow up?" Then we found Wes and he loves us both so much and so unconditionally. He is always there for Hunter. He loves helping with his homework and sports and even playing X-box with him. He doesn’t mind that I want to just be a wife and mother. He doesn’t mind that I dream of volunteering, that I want to help kids; I want to help battered women and I that give my change to beggars on the street. With getting married, sharing a home and a life, and now being pregnant, there has just been so much change in the past year or so. We have a lot of choices to make and a lot to pray about. Should we stay in this area or move where Wes can make more money? Hunter is at an age where he needs stability in school and sports so we obviously don’t want to move year after year. We have great friends and family and many blessings here too so it is just generally difficult to think of moving away. We know God has a plan for our family, we know we need to seek HIM with all of our hearts to find it, it is just hard to let go as we should
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Morgan Grace Scott is finally here!!!
Morgan Grace Scott is finally here!!!
Until now I had no idea that you could love so much with just one heart. Morgan Grace is here and my God is she beautiful. She was born 5/29/08 at 11:10 am, 8 lbs 10 oz and 20.5 in. She is a good baby. She is content and happy...we all are. She eats about every 2-3 hours, falls asleep, wakes up for a diaper change and then starts all over again. Wes is absolutely in love with her and I swear I think he loves me even more. Every time he kisses her he leans over and kisses me as if to say thank you. Hunter rocks as a big brother! He even volunteers to change diapers. He gets sentimental tears and wipes his eyes and says she is so cute.
Monday June 23, 2008
Colorado here we come!!!
(Thankful) I am so ready for Wes to be home to take us back to Colorado with him. I know he is doing the right thing for us working out of state so that I can be home with Hunter and Morgan, but this so much harder emotionally than I thought it would be. I knew we would miss each other but every time Morgan makes a face or a noise I want him to be here to see it. I know this is terribly hard on him too and I hurt because I can't fix it for him. I wondered last night if he knew all my feelings if he would say to me, "have you prayed about it?" like I always say to him when he is trying to figure something out. I know how blessed I am, and I don't take it for granted. There are military families all over America that don't get to talk to their spouses and parents every day like we do and don't have the liberty of traveling home whenever possible or when their children are born. So instead of feeling sorry for ourselves, I am packing up and spending the summer in Colorado with Wes! I have a list of everything I need to take for Morgan. For me, I just need a few clothes (nothing fits after the baby anyway) and shower stuff, my camera, a fishing pole, something good to read, some flip flops and some good walking shoes. For Morgan...a truck load of stuff! We will fly Hunter there when he finishes his summer visit with his Dad and then we will come home when football practice starts up. Wes's parents were so helpful and drove all the way to Colorado and brought him their RV to help us save money. It was a hug help and will make it feel more comfy have a familiar place with the baby. We are staying at a RV park only 6 miles from Pueblo State Park. There is a River walk nearby that I can take safe and easy walks at with Morgan while Wes is at work and then we can all go exploring when he is off (Sundays). I am really excited as I have never had an opportunity to just explore like this before. I am scared as I will miss my home and friends and know that our RV park neighbors will be woken when Morgan wakes up crying in the middle of the night. Wes said that you can see Pikes Peak from our front door. That is cool. I made a list of places I found on line that I want to see in the general area:
Pikes Peak, Seven Falls, Garden of the Gods, Cave of the Winds, Manitou Springs and the Royal Gorge.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Exploring in Colorado
I love coming to places like this where God is so obviously all around us. Where we are staying in Pueblo West is actually quite ugly, dry and flat, yet just 40 miles away is breath taking. Morgan gets all stuffy and has trouble breathing in the RV but when we go out of Pueblo she clears up and has no problem when we are at higher altitudes. We spent the weekend checking things out and planning our weekend for when Hunter is here. Thursday we drove to Canon City and then on to the Royal Gorge. We just looked at it; we will cross it when Hunter is here with us. We went to Seven Falls, Garden of the Gods, and Manitou Springs Saturday. We missed a momma bear and her cub by just a few minutes at Seven Falls. Then Sunday we took the VERY long way around and drove part of the Gold Belt Byway Tour. It was awe inspiring. I couldn't take my eyes off the trees, rocks and mountains. Half of our drive through the mountains and canyons was on a narrow dirt road. My neck and shoulders are still tense and hurting from driving though (it's hard to watch the road, on-coming traffic and everything so beautiful around me). I was glad when we hit paved roads again. We then walked around in Cripple Creek and ate dinner there and drove back late Sunday night. Seven weeks of exploring...I hope I lose more of this baby weight soon (I have lost about 30 lbs. so far), it is slowing me down.
Monday, July 21, 2008Second weekend of exploring in Colorado
I think we spent more time getting the breaks replaced than exploring Saturday but he made the best of the time we had left. Luckily we brought enough diapers and I had borrowed some good books to read from my Daddy. We went to the Manitou Cliff Dwellings and explored there a little then moved on to Cave of the Winds. It was 54 degrees in the caves! I loved it after being out in the heat all day. Then we drove to Old Colorado City to stroll in its old downtown area and headed back to Pueblo for the weekend. We spent Sunday playing with Morgan, doing laundry (I miss my washer and dryer), and Wes' grilled burgers for dinner. Not having Hunter here to share this with is hard. I want him to see everything with me. I can’t wait until he gets here!
Friday, August 15, 2008
Random thoughts and feelings
Okay, so I haven’t done a great job of keeping up with my journal. I have so many random thoughts that I intended to write down and am disappointed that I didn’t. Wes and I have seen so many beautiful places and things and Morgan is growing and changing every day. On Tuesday, she giggled (shrieked) on purpose for the first time and every day since. She did laugh in her sleep once when I first arrived. She also rolled all the way over yesterday! Wes also fed Morgan her first bottle here when I pumped. I was shocked that it bothered me that someone else was feeding her because it was Wes and he enjoyed it so much. I sat really close to them at first and had to make myself move away. She did really well with Wes feeding her.
I guess I have been a little depressed here in Colorado. Knowing that this is temporary and that Wes and I will be apart again is really hard on me. I am trying to make the best of every moment we have together and showing him how much I appreciate him. Really all I can do is be here, clean up, cook for him, be there for him physically, keep up with our finances, and care for Morgan. I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to be here with him and so out of place at the same time. I used to be so fearless and outgoing. Having a newborn with me makes me feel vulnerable. The first few days he was at work were the worst. I wasn’t yet familiar with the area. One evening, we finally went to the pond together and walked and I was very comfortable there. I have been very discouraged with my weight loss. I actually think I am gaining weight again even though I religiously walk a mile and a half to two miles a day.
The pond has been such a wonderful place for Morgan and me to go. She usually sleeps though most of the walk but sometimes looks at the sky and treetops. I have had so much fun watching the fish, HUGE tadpoles, thousands of frogs, ducks, coots (they have the neatest feet), the adorable baby ducklings, crawfish, lizards, red winged black birds, dragonflies, butterflies, geese, egret, and even a gopher peeked up to say hi to us. Another reason I was blue was that Hunter wasn’t here with us. I am glad he has a relationship with Kevin, but miss him so much when he is there. I want him to see all of the neat things we saw and share those memories with him.
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